heavy hearted

Monday, January 27, 2014

I'm not even sure where I want to go with this, but I am sure I need to get some things off my chest...I'm not the most eloquent writer, which is part of the reason I am having a hard time expressing myself. Every time I try to write something down, I immediately delete it for the fear that I have not justly expressed my emotions or given the cause enough importance. I have strayed away from talking about my personal life lately, but I want this to be a place to share my life with people...with you. I have always been amazed by the support bloggers have for one another. The internet is no longer just a place to share a simple outfit, recipe, or hairstyle. It's a place to share trials and tribulations in the hopes that someone can relate. I want people in similar situations to be able to come together and support one another. I may need a friend, and I want to be that friend for someone else.

Terrible things happen to good people and it's not fair. My sister was diagnosed with breast cancer. Typing that out physically causes me pain. We are all dealing with this the best we can, but it is harder than I could have ever imagined. You never think your family will have to go through something like this. You never think your sister will become another statistic. One in eight women are diagnosed with breast cancer. One in eight. And although she may be another statistic, she is so much more than that.

We are standing behind my beautifully strong twenty nine year old sister. She has been SO amazingly optimistic throughout this whole thing. Her courage is astonishing. She has been braver than you could imagine! Seeing her face this adversity with courage reassures me that she will fight this thing harder than anyone else. She is going to kick cancer's ass and I am so proud to call her family, my sister, and my best friend. We are just barely starting this long process, but they found the cancer early enough that there is a good chance they will be able to get rid of the cancer on her first round of chemo. As far as surgery goes, we'll know more when she takes all the necessary tests within the next couple of days.

It is by no means my intent to gain pity from anyone. I want to share this journey on here so people who are going through similar situations feel like they can relate. If you, or anyone you know, has been through a similar situation, I feel for you. I feel for you from the bottom of my heart. I know my sister will fight this and come out the other end stronger, it's just hard to get to that place in my head right now. All I ask is that you keep my family in your prayers!

Yes, this is essentially a fashion blog, and it will still remain a place where I show outfits from time to time (albeit less often now), but it is also my space to do with what I like. It seems silly now to go on and post outfits after going through something so earth shattering, but it provides me some much needed distraction. Looking at other blogs full of funny stories, pretty pictures, and amazing outfits makes me smile. Call me crazy, but my favorite blogs are the ones that share all aspects of someone's life, not just the happy moments. 


  1. I'll be praying for you, your sister and your family! I used to work on a cancer floor in a hospital and it was amazing and humbling to watch people overcome so many obstacles and your sister sounds like a fighter! Just stay positive and strong. God gives his hardest battles to his best soldiers :)

  2. Tor, you're so strong, and you and your sister will make it through this!!! you're in my prayers. ive your whole family hugs for me.

    xx Laur

  3. Praying for you and your family, dear friend. Please let me know if there's anything I can do - anything at all. <3

  4. My thoughts, its never easy but with love and support you can all make it through together!
    I also love the honesty, keep it coming! I think your writing is beautiful.



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